Time To Make Some Decisions

Hey Everybody!

So I've been missing lately and its because I've had a lot of things on my plate. First of all, my friend, the "hot" one from my Uglies dream, and I have been talking and he likes me. He's liked me for some time now and a long time ago I liked him too but now, sometimes I'd feel the same way and sometimes I didn't. Obviously this was a problem. Sometimes we were like a couple and sometimes I just felt like we should stay friends. Then I realized, its probably not that I like him, I just miss being in a relationship and I shouldn't let that affect whether I like a person or not. You would think that with my tastes I'd like him right. I mean he's really cool and I like hanging out with him but I just don't feel the same way. I never wanted to tell him this though because I didn't want to lose him as a friend but I can't keep stringing him along you know. My not liking him has nothing to do with the fact that I still like that other guy not. I'll call him That Boy! I'm talking to That Boy! again and we get along greatly. I first texted him again when we were at a game and he tumbled. Like serious tumble. Like Scarlet Takes A Tumble kind of tumble. I was like "Oh my shit are you okay?" and next thing I know we're talking again. I love it though. My friend is always calling him a dick though. Like serious not-likeage of That Boy! He actually told me why he does though. He said "I don't really get jealous [I scoffed]. I'm serious, the only reason why I am now is because I don't have you so you can go anytime you want." It was incredibly sweet but then I felt terrible. Also one of my super close friends in the suite likes him too and I feel so bad that I'm stringing him along. So I guess it's time now to cut that string and hope for the best. Also try to get everyone used to the idea of myself talking to That Boy! and get them to stop thinking he's a total dick (for some odd reason that I had nothing to do with).