Pseudo Self-Reflection

You don't have to be pretty to have a good time…


I was originally going to blog about how suckish my life has been but after a semi-invigorating speech from my bestie's bf and a little self reflection, I realize the thing that has me down in the dumps is him.

Yes him.

This boy is the reason I've been so sad. And why should I let anyone have that kind of power over me.
Okay I'm trying not to rant but I can't help it. I'm a ranter(sp?).

So I've decided not to let anything get me down because I'm Lady J! And if you don't know me, that means I'm pretty fucking awesome. And I don't have to put up with anything that makes me feel terrible about myself. And I don't say this because I'm cocky. I'm saying this because it not only applies to me, but to everyone else out there. You shouldn't do anything (or anyone) that makes you unhappy.

But yes I'm pretty damn cocky.

If he's always yelling at me and makes me sleep on the edge of the bed or never shows any PDA what-so-ever, it's my fault for putting up with it. I have my own bed, I don't have to listen to what he says, and also there are other boys. I was actually invited on a date today.

I know, me. A date! Which would be awesome.

He invited me to the movies. If I was interested, I'd definitely say yes. But I am not, for shallow, shallow reasons.

So this weekend while he's gone, I'm going to party like it's 1699. Yep, I'm going hard. Then I'm going to make my video (from the last blog post). I actually haven't reread that post yet. I wonder what I said…

Anyways, I'd like to thank Pop Punk music and Organic Chemistry for cheering me up. Yes I love Chemistry, don't judge me.

Yay All Time Low and Cleavage to Carbonyl Compounds using Oxidation.


mini rant:

So he's just not the guy I used to like. He's so rude to me and pretty much treats me like I'm a non-factor which I'm not. I'm the most fucking awesomest person out there and I'm pretty upset. And the worst part is he can't see it. I tell you everyone else can but him. And if I even sigh he'll say "Don't come with that bullshit, you know I treat you better than everyone else." Well news flash! Taking me out for sushi dates (I don't even like sushi that much (I had been trying to go out for tacos with him for about 2 weeks no lie but he doesn't like soft-shell tacos so he won't go out with me)) or puckering your lips every once in a while so I don't seem upset does not count as treating me better than everyone else. I'm tired of getting cursed at multiple times a day for bullshit. I don't know who you think you are or what you think I did to you, but I don't deserve this.

I'm hungry...