...Cause I'm So Losing It Right Now

Why does everyone everyone think I'm emotionless. My friends think I speak in a monotone and my ex and my friends though I didn't show enough emotion towards him or somrthing. Well if that's the case I am sorry. Sorry I couldn't show you I like you and I still do. I'm such an ass right, there are like a million girls obssessed with him. And some of my friends say he's a douche  or a loser etc.. but if I'm the one who pushed him away then I'm the one who messed it up right. I'm sure he won't even talk to me right now. Oh and one of those obssessed chicks does not like me right now. I mean really, I'm not goin to fight so calm down. Actually I should calm down. All in Europe I was thinking and songs like "When You're Gone", and "Thinking Of You" do not help...at all. I really want to know how everything will play out...